knowing myself

it was me

Knowing myself..
I once knew this simple and happy girl.
Who always had a smile on her face
Whenever I see herAs she enters the class,
everybodyLooked at her.
She’s late again, but she doesn’t care
This simple girl which everybody
Knew as a joyful and happy person
When tomorrow came everybody starts to wonder,
and She accepted insults from the words of the teacher
Its so strange to think about it, why
She tried to hide something which we
Thought we knew
She seems so quiet, she seems so sad
She seems like theres nobody to hold her hand
I asked her what bothers her.
She never told me anything,
and started to cryI pity her, but I couldn’t help her
She wanted to be alone
So I couldn’t come near her.
Seeing myself in the mirror.
remembered The sadness in her eyes.
It was me all along..
the happy girl who cried

you are my life

it's late at night and i couldn't sleep
it's late at night and i imagine you sleep
previuosly i've waited for you
and previously i think of you
i couldn't sleep because of that simple thing
i couldn't sleep because i feel so sick

i don't feel alive anymore
because i don't feel you near me
a simple word from you is all i nead
to feel the warmth you're here with me
i miss you so, i wish you'd see that
who am i to tell you all this
i have no right, we are just friends
and friends we will always be

you once told me i was beautiful, i asked if it's true
all i heard was a simple yes, but it made me really smile more
but still i'm not so sure, if you apreciate me
or your just fooling me

i asked my heart if i really love you
but my heart didn't reply
it justed stayed quiet and continue to pump

i need you so, cause i'm about to die
my soul, my heart all of it is saying goodbye
i need your warmth cause my body is freezing cold
i need your hand to cover my bleeding soul
i need you so i need you now

for my heart only beats one thing
it's because
you are my life

being in love with a stranger

falling for a stranger

Have you ever wondered if I loved you
have you ever wondered if I care..
have you ever thought if I’m thinking of you
have you ever thought if I’m there

every single word from you..
means so much to me..
and every little thing you do..
makes me smile through the rest of the day

hate me if you mustbut I beg you to love me
this might sound strange
but your portrait is here to stay

I feel so selfish, so selfish everyday
Why I chose you.. and yet
You might not choose me

Please believe me.. for I know what is true
Please forgive me.. for I am such a fool
Your name echoes in my head..
Your smile is tattooed on my head..
I love you so.. yet you don’t love me
I need you so..
but still..
you don’t know me..

back from the past

it takes time

i woke up early in the morning
asking myself why your smile was in my head all night
when I saw you I didn’t know what to do
when I talked to you I didn’t know what to say
when you held my hand I didn’t know what I felt..
you were my past.. and my only past
you were a very big part of me
it’s true I love someone new
but how come I feel so weak
so weak that I wanted to have you forever
I thought I don’t have feeling for you anymore
Because you were the past
After a long period of time
I finally saw you
Your smile that mesmerizes meI felt weak..
I wanted to give up everything
just because I stared at your eyes
Even thought it was just for a while..
I wish that god never let us see each other again
For that day made me my old self
My self which I was weak and stupid
I felt it was my lose althought it was yours
I see curiosity in your smile
I see my past in your eyes
I wanted you back.. oh so much.. but yet
You never noticed me even thought for a while

dangerously in love..

DANGER

i desperately open my eyes to the truth of reality
that there are these captures in life which always bothers me
i wish you could open my heart,
i wish you could understand
that i could never leave you,
and that's a promise till' the end
if only you knew that my love for you has never been stronger than before
then you would think if your love is strong enough to satisfy me too
but why can't you see that, why can't you understand
that i can't let you go.
why is it hard to take this big peice away from me just to make me whole..
i don't know if you've noticed i don't know if you feel it
i'm really damn crazy for you, now tell me did you see it?
i really love you,and i'll always will.
so now you tell me it's so hard to forget
i thought you loved me so why can't you fight for me.
why can't you understand that it's really you whom i'm after with
i cried for you each night i'm not with you,
please don't take this wrong
but i'm dangerously in love with you,
though you don't see it all. :(

waiting silently forever

long for your arms

Years of hiding sadness in my every smile
Is for you not to worry about the pain inside
Its hard to keep this or even throw it away
Cause no matter what happens this love will always stay
I have no right to cry, I have no right to make you sad
It’s hard to think you’ll always be with me
Cause in your heart you and me are apart
I wish upon the bright shining star
As tear drops fall beneath my eye
It’s hard to accept the things she does
Cause when you cry, double I cry
I hate to see you cry all night
Cause I do hate to cry for none
I love u,I wish you’d see that
I want you soon, but I’m demanding too much
After all my hiding and waiting
The time has come for me to say it
All my life I prepared for this moment
To say I love you, and i'll only leave you till you say it
As I wait for the heat to arise.
You finally told me your reply
As your voice passed through my ear
A tear drop fell, and breaked my heart apart
I was too late to admit the truth
Cause you said you love me, but now its her.
I wish I told you earlier, but I was too afraid.
And now it all fade away.
Just like she was to you
The pain still lingers on,
as day turns to night
I still had the feeling of keeping you in sight
I don’t wanna cry I don’t wanna fall
I don’t wanna think about the days
That made me stumble and fall
Now I’m back loving someone new
But theres one thing bothering me.
Is he like you?

she had your heart

she had it..

she had your heart
it's raining again and my heart still bleeds
this is the perfect moment to feel you near me..
i feel so cold.. please come near me..
i need to hear your soft wonderful voice,
so this coldness will melt just even for a moment.
as i looked out the window..
i saw beautiful flowers..
it's amazing how they change,
as the seasons enters it's cycle...
i imagine you as this beautiful flower..
who looks so wonderful each and everyday..
but i wonder if you changed
or are you still the same the rain has stop.
.as my heart stopped from bleeding
it's such a wonderful day
cause the laughter is beginning
after a while.. there's always goodbye..
your gone again and i miss you tonight
i wish you were by my side,
so that i don't have to suffer..
i miss you always every night..
and every day still follows..
it's just a normal day..
to always to think of you and
it's just a normal dream to always dream about you..
my heart reaches for you..
but i coudn't find you..
i guess your heart isn't with you..
she might have taken it from you.

past or present

broken
past or present
i hate to think your back again
i hate to think your always in mind
i hate the days you left me behind
i hate you always saying goodbye
i love him so.. but you changed everything
why i started to love you more again
and why i stumble and fall
he loves me so very much..
but i couldn't love him for yet i loved another..
another so much better..
this is what my present life is all about..
but then again i asked myself
why you keep on coming back..
and why i can't forget about the past
you leaved me so i wouldn't get hurt
you never talked to me just to forget al
li wouldn't want to hurt anyone
anyone who lights up my life
i wouldn't wanna hurt someone
like the times i suffered for your love
i need to forget everythingbut i wouldn't like it..
cause in my heart i would choose
harsh times to love you rather
than feeling empty and dull inside
i feel so weak.. i need your warm embrace
cause this war between my past and my present
makes me worthless and oh so tired..

kill me or love me

killing romance
Kill me or love me
Last night my heart wanted to burst out
Last night, I wanted to die
Asking you to end my life for me
never led to anything

I thought you never loved me.
I thought you never cared
I thought you would just leave me
And left me in this spell

Why am I feeling like this,
I’m feeling so very dead
Although you showed how much you care
It didn’t stop me from getting depressed

But in that short moment I felt happiness
Just when you comfort me then
My spirit was so lightened upI felt like I wanted to live

The sun has come and that night was ove
rYou are not with me again and
yet I feel so depressed
I need you oh so very much
I feel like your playing with my heart
Yet I’m not so sure

Crying in this moment doesn’t really make sense anymore
Why is it always when I cry I don’t even know why
And how come I don’t cry
when my heart is breaking right in your sight

I couldn’t take this anymore this very stupid feeling.
I wish I could die right now.
Though I’ll miss u’r loving feeling

just for you

beauty
Just for you
-= going back to the past..
a photo of you is tatooed on my mind..
your were my best friend..
your were my true friend..
your were the only one i dream about..
your were my life you were my love..
you are the reason why i still stand up..
everytime i see you smile.. l
ater on.. you'll start to cry..
i don't know why..i don't know how..
but all i know its because of her..
breaking your heart..
another day.. another sigh
another fool and a broken heart
crying softly as u hold her hand..
i ran away.. as she left you out..
you stood where she left you with nothing but your crushed heart..
my door knocked as my heart pumped...
i opened up the door and saw teardrops drop..
you embrassed me tight so i let you cry..
but this pain inside is hard to hide..
i caught your eye..
as i ask you why?...
i love you so but her its her you cry..
everyday i keep this inside and everyday i cry to hide..
i love you so much but you love her till you die..
i was so stupid before to let moments pass..
now i realized i need you as you said in vibe...
you took my hand and wiped my tears..y
ou smiled at me and told me..
"i loved you before.. but i couldn't say it..
i love you before but i couldn't expresse it..
i loved you before but your heart wasn't mine..
now i love her.. and my heart is by her side.."
i stopped and thinked how harsh it was..
i loved you now as you love her now..
oh why oh why didn't we fall at the same time.
.and why did birds stop passing by..
that was the past and my only past..
it was very fast and it didn't last..
now i'm back as a brand new fool..
fooling myself..
just for you...